Below are the 16 most recent journal entries recorded in xihearturcarx's LiveJournal:

Saturday, August 20th, 2005
3:41 am	whatever I done with you until you grow up, u really pissed me off this time, thanks for appreciating me.... Current Mood: aggravated (Comment on this)
Monday, July 18th, 2005
11:58 pm	More to say So tonight at work was super fun, i made more money tonight than i have so far and the crazy redlights i had to turn turned out AWESOME!!!! I miss Ashley, its been a few days since we have hung out, she is kind of in a shitty mood and it makes me upset cuz there isnt much i can do for her. It sux that her boyfriend is an ass sometimes. i love you ashness!!! Im very frusterated about where we are going to end up living next year. Our lease is up in Feb and we were suppose to get his brothers house but now all of a sudden its gonna be their "camp". GR WHATEVER!! Ok well lets see, the apt that is 1/3 of the way built thats gonna cost 10 grand more could get made if people would pull their weight! I dont know, and i dont want a townhouse cuz it i got a townhouse i mine as well get a frickin house. Im quite upset about my dad moving, him flying back from NC every weekend i can deal with but then when Cathy and the kids leave and knowing that the house is sold and everything...its just upsetting, i love that house and i dont want to lose the relationship that my dad and I are forming now that hes gonna be 10 hours away. I guess the 3 only good things coming out of it all is, a new start for Mickenzie, a vacation spot, and my dad being happy...well im not sure if he actually is but i hope so. O well like sux! I love Anthony though, that makes me happy...knowing that i have found "the one" already :) <3 Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Friday, July 15th, 2005
2:28 pm	Its been a long long time....... Well everything has been going quite well, working at Regis is awesome, well it would be better without some of the people but i guess that goes along with every job. Anthony is an asshole and i hate him so much, haha no way hes awesome and i love him more than nething except when he runs away from me in the casino and tries to drive away without me and when we go through stores and pretends he is mentally challenged lol...Hanging out with Ashness has been awesome this summer even when shes down and out im happy im there for her... i miss some of the people that i used to be friends with but hey if they dont care, then i guess i dont either, shit happens! well thats all i have to get ready for work.. peace! Current Mood: thoughtful (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
12:57 pm	Its been awhile..... Yeah yeah yeah I know its been like forever since ive written and now i finally have some time...ok...so there has been some drama here and there becuz people dont know how to handle the truth and thats all i speak. Im a blunt bitch and I really dont care. Me and Anthony are offically engaged and I couldnt be happier. He has an interview with Lockheed Martin on Wendnesday and I cant wait....Someone who graduates college with a 3.95 GPA deserves something. But he has to be the most caring, sweetest, understanding guy i know and I cant wait to spend the rest of our lives together. Well I havent hung out with the same people I used to anymore and Im not sure why. Lindsey got sick and well then she just kinda shyed away and Ashley has her own life out on brockport and I dont want to interrupt that. I miss them both like crazy though especially my Ashness....ur still my bestest friend and I love you!! But I have met an awesome new friend from school named Melissa...we are some what a lot alike and I know I can trust her with everything. Thanks hun! Well Im a little behind in school but I WILL be done in January...wooohoo, ill owe quite a bit of money but hey thats ok...Ill be done... Ok well im out...........<3 Current Mood: content Current Music: None at the moment (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 11th, 2004
3:46 pm	*Amazing* I have the most amazing life ever right now...Anthony is absolutly amazing and makes me happier than anything, I dont know what I did without him in my life, my mouth hurts so bad every night becuz i am always smiling whenever he is around....no words can explain this kid thats for sure...maybe clingy and neurotic....;) haha (inside joke) For these few days that I have known and hung out with him, I have had more fun than ever and have never been treated like this either. Everyone always told me to find someone to treat me the way I deserve and sure ive had "nice" boyfriends but that doesnt even describe Ant. He treats me better than...hm....i dont know...but its amazing haha.....And everyone shouldnt hate .... u should all be happy for me...and um...DRAMA sucks ass! :) <3 Current Mood: loved (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 4th, 2004
12:13 pm	What a weekend! Ok well this past weekend was the most adventures one i have had in a long time. It all started on saturday while driving up to Brockport and having the normal road rage with slow drivers....Well after getting there, me, ashley, and our friends Christian and Danielle all went to Extreme Ink (i think thats the name) and i got my monroe pierced after debating between that or getting my septum done again....Everything went well and I was a happy camper.. So then we go to Bens birthday party and it was quite awkward for me seeing as how everyone knew who i was and didnt like me too well knowing that I broke up with him. People need to mind their own fuckin business and get over the drama...we dated for a friggin week...not a big deal...I dont know whatever not a big deal...we stayed for about an hour andf then left but im glas after talking to Lindsey that it got fun and they all had fun... Then while driving back to campus while trying to say "hot dog" a million times fast a deer decided to run out in front of me, i slammed on my breaks and i thought i was gonna miss him but sad to say i didnt....but to our luck there was a cop RIGHT there to save us...i got out of the car and he told me to get back in...so i did and then i heard the shot :( Will me and Ash start crying...poor deer...So sad...Well ive never been in the back of a cop car..or in one to begin with...that was interesting...he was super nice tho so it was kool...I made the report and blah blah blah and then he asked me if i wanted it and i said no and he asked me well do you wanna say goodbye and pet Bambi as the blood was gushing out...(EWW) and i was like no i just wanna go home.... Although we have come to the conclusion that if i wasnt distracted by the whole hot dog situation i would have swerved around the deer and hit the cop head on so i guess hitting it was the best thing to do :-/ Then last night I went to the LSF show in Rochacha at Water St. I love those boys so much...they are so amazingly talented it makes me teary eyed...Caleb's voice...josh's voice...Hmmmmmmm *sigh* *swoon* AMAZING..the only word that can explain them and I got a new hoodie yay!! I get my paw print tattoos today...Happy Birthday to me from Joey..yay! And tonight I have a Diner Date with Kary haha....cant wait ;0) So excited... Until next time....Im out Current Mood: excited Current Music: Thrice - (All Thats Left) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 27th, 2004
3:40 pm	Woot Woot This weekend was awesome although i missed paula n Linds a ton!! JohnnyD is amazing....the party was fun....Dan cracks me up. I met some new kool people...I havent been to the Diner in like a week n i am having withdrawls....but tonight i am going and proly meeting some kids there with Lindsey....Im sick of stupid ass kids with the initials TP posting stupid shit up about their stupid jobs that arent even real...Im sick of being nice...i think the kid is a douchebag and i cant take it anymore..Craig..u make me smile a ton and i want us to go to a dance party and i wanna be ur date "Beo Beo"..haha ur awesome....Im tired..im gonna take a little nap before i get ready for tonight and clean the bathroom.... Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Blink 182 - (Adam's Song) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004
1:56 am	WOW...HAHA ! WOW I will def. say that last night was more fun than I have had in a long time...haha...so me n Lindsey def stayed at the Bville Diner for 4 hours and never stepped foot inside the place thanks to our new friends we met there a few weeks ago. Imagine that..they r there again the next time we go....So Paula n Nate went home and we sat in Lindseys car forever talking....haha Phil n Paul are amazing..n so funny...even when they're high..man that was fun cuz "we live together and are very close" haha so mmmmmm thats all im gonna say about that... So me n P Love n Linds went to the Diner again tonight and were gonna meet up with the cuties but they were too tired...they wanna talk about tired?? I was the one who didnt end up getting to sleep till almost 5 and then had to turn around 3 hours later and get up for work...and everyone else either had the day off or didnt have to go in till late grr.... S0o0o0o the plan is tomorrow night after I get out of school n Lindsey gets out of work we are gonna hang out with them...yay cant wait...mmmm...missing that already :)...Ice Blue Rasberry Kool-Aid is Delicious :) aww yay....Till then I am beat n need some sleep... XOXO Me Current Mood: tired Current Music: *Crickets* (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 20th, 2004
4:19 pm	Brockport again.... -So im in Brockport visiting my Ashness again this weekend...other than that things have been pretty boring in my life although i am going to super walmart tonight at midnight hoping they have the new green day album for Lindseycore....it looks like no Diner with Kary n Maureen tonight...someone has no money n no ride...MR! :) jk Im kind of dizzy right now and Im not enjoying it... I love meeting new peope...! They make me enjoy life... Status is still single..def not going to rush into nething..hanging out is just fine and um cuddleing is better! Sometimes I get quite lonely *sigh* Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: Music wont help my dizzyness (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 19th, 2004
3:04 am	same old.. So nothing has been new really....Im feeling a lot better and I babysat tonight and made some good money...I met my buddy David, hes awesome!!!!!!!! thats it, ill write more when something interesting happens...... Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: My dog barking (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 16th, 2004
12:14 pm	Still sick..... ^So i started feeling really sick yesterday at school and had to come home....today i am still sick, i tried to go to work while throwing up on myself in my car on the way there. It sucked and then i went home and had some soup....i figured i was sooo hungry i would eat it newayz if i puked it up, but its holding down quite well.... Ok so Ben thinks there is someone else or something, there is no one else, I thought i wanted a boyfriend and it turns out I just want to be single after all. I mean I dont know.....I give up, sometimes boys are dumb and ya know what, nice girls always finish last too so guys need to suck it up...no pity from this girl... Ashley is coming home today *woot woot* Im excited except I wont be able to see her tonight cuz im sick :( and I was suppose to hang out with Lindseycore tonight too to fix her hair and burn some cds and i dont think thats gonna happen either, this girl needs her sleep...I guess thats life.. Man I am gonna owe so much money for school once i finally graduate, this sux, but if im sick, im sick, theres nothing i can do, im not gonna go and then throw up the whole time or risk getting anyone else sick. *blah* Im kinda mad that i cant go to the norma jean/kllswitch show, Friday i have school and i CANT miss nemore and then on saturday i have to work and then i told some friends of mine that i would watch their boys while they went to a late wedding and then reception. They arent gonna get home till like 2 am so im SOL. Oh well theres always another time im sure. They arent gonna dissapear...and thats that.... I love LONG SINCE FORGOTTEN!! Im gonna go take a nap now...maybe i feel better when i wake up... @--^-- haha my stupid rose :) Current Mood: sick Current Music: Long Since Forgotten - (The Getaway) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 14th, 2004
11:40 pm	:( !So i feel like shit....I broke up with Ben. I guess we just didnt feel the same way about each other...but i guess thats life... On a better note I met some awesome kids and thats it..off to the diner! Night! Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Long Since Forgotten - (10:18 Press Return) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:34 am	Tired of driving... *Well I will say today was quite busy....i drove back from Brockport, went the the dentist, went to my dads, came home and hooked up my computer and then went to the Diner with 2 of my favorite girlies.... The Diner was AMAZING tonight and even Nate came to hang out too! I met this kool dude named Paul and he looked just like and acted like my friend "Z"...It was very weird...We had a lot of good laughs and Im tired and goofy which means I should go to bed.... I have the internet back at my house now so Ill be on all the time after 10 now when i get home from school....very exciting...I get withdrawl... Night! Long Since Forgotten....Sigh.... Thanx Paula Current Mood: chipper Current Music: Long Since Forgotten - (Around Again) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 13th, 2004
1:14 am	Brockport *::*Ok well I have to say that I understand why Ashley hates this school...it sux and thats just an understatement. We went to some lounge when I got here to get some food and when we walked in the door people were just staring at us like we were freaks (note the piercings)but seriously...fuck them...preppy bitches.... Yesterday was awesome...going to the show with some of my closest friends including the boy <3...Acceptance and Long Since Forgotten were unforgettable..lets not forget adorable as well....guys singin voices is one thing I sure swoon over! ha.....no jealousy aloud....and then off to Paula's party at Trinity...not to sound like a bitch but it was lame..(sorry hun)..I mean yeah m sXe and all but Im not a bitch when it comes to being around people that arent but the majority if those people need to wake up..They are definalty in the real world and cant spend the rest of their lives getting drunk everynight, Do they realize that they are throwing their lives away. I bet being sober, none of them even have a personality and no one would probly like them if they werent drunk 24/7. When it gets to the point where they forget they had a party or went to a party the night before....I mean come on....how old are u now...maturity I would think has kickin in by now. Enough of that bullshit Well I watched the Passion of Christ tonight while being here in lovely Brockport *rolls eyes*..man that movie was super disturbing...Im not religious in any way..but man...it was crazy!! Ash thinks Im never gonna visit her again..haha...just cuz the people around here suck (with the exception of her roomates and Christian and a couple other kids I met that arent odd), it took me 2 hours to get here, and I got lost lol...Now Now that would never keep me away from spending time with my Ashness...I love her too much! And I will say my boyfriend is the most amazing understanding guy Ive met!!! <3 Well thats all!!*::* Nighty Night! Current Mood: amused Current Music: ...Nothing...the roomie is sleepin...*SHHH* (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
11:30 pm	My hair is red!! So my hair is dark red...great for the amazing fall season... Paula's party is this weekend and it should be awesome along with an amazing show and Ben doesnt have to work and thats even cooler :) My life is boring so this is all I have to say.... I miss my Ashness :(..... Current Mood: content Current Music: The TV? (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 7th, 2004
2:58 am	Holy Shit its late!! First entry: Its about time I get EMO So its so late or should I say early..today was awesome...finally someone that makes me feel good about myself, someone who accepts who I am , and finally someone I have a good time with. Ben is amazing, thank you Lindsey..you're awesome.. I miss Ashley already and she just went back to Brockport today...Its ok tho..we'll have a dance party with some Electric Six when I visit her this weekend. It will be amazing. I hope her roomies are kool! Hopefully there will be a good show soon where i can "bring the mosh" LMAO...man Scene Sucks videos are the sex...lol. Nights with Lindsey are unforgettable...I need sleep.... Goodnight Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: *The Sounds of Futurama* (1 Comment |Comment on this)